Day 4

Hmm. Nothing happen much today. We went to have the usual chicken rice ball nearby and surprisingly I managed to finish three big ones when previously I only managed two. Embarking the route to obesity.. Maybe soh lou's dream would come true..(Hmm..how ugly I would look like when I'm fat?) Then went Bugis. Sien right? We could go shop at the same street for dozen of times. Bought 2 dresses, at a really ridiculous price, obviously we failed to count in the currency exchange rate. Mum was of course f-u-r-i-o-u-s! I was put to blame for wanting to buy the second dress, which is in a striking blue. All in all, the day didn't end good. Ended up hearing what mum told sis when they thought I fell asleep.

"Ur big sister has always been a failure in picking out her own wardrobe apparel, I wonder if she sucks at selecting her boyfriend as well..."

Ouch~ That hurts! A lot! T.T

Day 5

Woke up around 10am to find that soh lou has already sent me a sms and on top of it all, actually woke up EARLIER than me~!!! The next I know, my sore throat was worse than yesterday. I couldn't speak, and the others thought I was all moody from missing the special someone too much. OkOk..maybe a bit.. (^v^).. What's worse than having a sore throat? To have to finish up the curry chicken and fried mee hoon from yesterday and then go for spicy black peppered bak kut teh for brunch (alhough I have always loved their soup). Next, went to Bugis to get the dress exchanged. The usual crowd of tenagers there, plus the middle-aged.. Haji wat~ Spotted a cute T-shirt that soh lou and I could wear on valentine's - Spongebob's face. Muahaha.. Kidding! Soh lou wouldn't put on anything pink (ooi.. thought one of your earring was pink), so this is definitely out of the question. Then shopped a lil at OG. Then mum went to the bank only to find that it's closed. Haji wat~.. obviously she has forgotten that! Haha.

Once reached home, bro has only managed to connect to the internet but I noticed soh lou was on the line. So I snatched the laptop from them (Well actually, I pleaded hard for them to let me use for a moment). Soh lou wasn't able to get the on-campus accommodation and was obviously quite disappointed and frustrated about it. Don't know how to cheer him up, the only thing to do was to keep him company. Talk crap! Be cheeky! Make him laugh! Don't worry. I will pester you and thrash up your place for you. You just need to do the cleaning. But before that, hopefully I can push you to study! Then it's PIGGY time till 7pm while I blogged and waited..

~ S*I*N*G*A*P*O*R*E ~

Day 1

Went to Bugis Junction. To meet up with Chee Ho and Kien Ooi. Then we went yum cha and chatted for hours. Well, literally those doing most of the talking were Chee Ho and my darling sis whilst Kien Ooi and I sat there keeping mum. Chee Ho was such a sweet talker and kept giving me "misleading" signals. If I were to not have gong ter right now.... Who knows... ? #Pictures come later# Sis then walked around deciding what to buy for Ben (No thanks to the big help by CH) and I tagged behind. Then dinner at Terra, loathe cheesy western food..

Day 2

Unintentionally talked back to mum today. Shouldn't have, but couldn't hold it back at that instant. Went for Alvin and the Chipmunks movie at The Cathay. Cute chipmunks! Lurve their fury lil songs! Can't help imagining gong ter would sound like that since he has sore throat. Somemore with his goofy laugh~ *cheeky*. But ended up dozing off towards the end of the movie, that boils down to insufficient sleep since Day 1 maybe (Aunt say I look exhausted). Felt awkward all throughout the movie. The seats? Nope. The air-conditioning? Nope. Obviously, it's without gong ter!! I laughed a minute too soon - I have a sore throat! Caramel popcorn's the evil culprit. Then top it up with it's tom yam noodles for dinner somemore.

Day 3

Had a dream last night. Dreamt I embarked on the flight back to Australia and to tell the truth, really enjoy"-ed" being back there. During the previous summer holidays, I have always wished that I have a longer duration and not have to go back. Now I think otherwise. One reason would be not having done anything progressive. Should have went for a part time job. Two, I have less stuff weighing on my mind when I was actually busy studying. Coming back would be like waking me up from the comfort of my bed and face the cruel reality. I know I can play dumb no more, it's time for me to really decide what I need to do with my future. Aunt was asking me whether I'd want to take over my father's business. I did consider about that, but can I manage? She told me that there's no turning back once I really chose to do so, and that there's a really really big responsibility to bear.

There's also the matter between gong ter and I since I came clean with mum telling her about us. It ended up far worse than I thought it would turn out. A minute ago when she thought I am unattached, she's telling everyone her worries of me not finding the suitable someone yet. A minute later knowing otherwise, she freaked out saying I should end the relationship. I know her worries and all, I will have a serious thought over it and heed all her advice. It's going to be a long hardship ahead for us. Hmm.. *fingers crossed* Miss him really really very much right now.

ChristMas

This season of giving hasn't been really jolly and joyful.

The once anticipated trip has now mean nothing much but a tiring 8 hours train ride to and back. I miss my grandparents...

I went window shopping today. There were shops filled with shimmering decorations and crowding people, all happily in search of the best gift for their loved ones. Meeting up with ex-classmates cheered me up a little but still something was weighing on my mind all the while we laughed and chatted. As soon as I felt a wee bit better and relieved, I was welcomed with an unexpectable surprise as I reached home. Half an hour or so of lecture and questioning session..

I know what they did was solely out of the best intention for me, but being too protected I feel that I have not the control over my own life, as though being chained to the wall and put behind bars although provided with the best food. I am thankful for having such wonderful family who cared, yet can't help feeling the emptiness inside. The voices I hear have made me lose all sense of directions, giving me a mixture of feelings as though the rainbow had swirled in the sky of clouds.

I'm miserable. I hope I can be strong. To prove to them that this someone special I've met has brought me joy and happiness.